Today, we had a korean concert service at the church.  Amazing how the songs and video played struck and moved me to tears.  Oh man!  I loved it.  I felt deeply moved.  And I just went on crying especially upon seeing Jesus Christ being whipped and nailed on the cross for my sins.  I felt so loved.  And so guilty too.  And before I knew it, my tears were running down my cheeks,  racing.  I love it - crying, knowing for a certainty that I am loved and someone died for me (brings guilt though).

I learned so much from the Bible Study as well.  I am loving the group and what we do.  Thank you guys!

And after church, since I just learned how to bike,  I cycled for two hours with idel.   felt so good!

Posted: May 27th, 2007 under Fitness, Love Actually, Religion, Serious Talk.
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May 21, 2007 (Mon)

yepey!
yes. you heard and read it right. i didn’t know how to ride a bike. i wasn’t exposed to bicycles. my family doesn’t own a bike and perhaps, i wasn’t that interested. a bike was merely a want, not a need.

well, here in Japan, a bike is considered every man’s feet, a need, not a want. young and adults alike have bicycles. and while i maybe capable of having one, i didn’t know how to ride on it. confessing to anyone (here in Japan) that i didn’t know how to, is such a shame. all of them were surprised and did think that i was just kidding. but, no, i wasn’t kidding.

i missed all those bike riding activities and i replaced bike rides with train rides and walks.

until i decided to finally try learning how to. to be honest, it’s hard. i wanted to learn it quick but i couldn’t. i tried moving around the park only to fail. watching young and adults riding on their bike made me feel so frustrated and somehow, i felt a bit discouraged and yeah, so ashamed.

kay was encouraging me and telling to ignore all those surprised faces of both adults and young watching me. she was coaching me how to do it in the way she did it when she was yet learning.

but i never did learn on my first day. i only earned bruises and body pains (esp my butt). but it’s worth another try. i concluded, learning japanese especially kanji is easier than learning how to bike.

i searched the internet for tips but the lists are those that i know. there was no secret revealed that i needed to know to learn quickly.

this morning, i was with another friend, keren. she’s an expert with bike riding and she swore i’d learn in just a single session. so, we went to the park again and she taught me the first few steps to learning how to do it. balancing was the first goal. i rotated the park for perhaps, almost an hour, just trying to balance. and then, i tried putting my legs on the pedal. alas! i did it! in two hours, i learned how to do it.

and i am damn so proud of myself. and i was wrong. learning japanese (kanji esp) is far more difficult than learning to ride the bike.

i think i am the only one in our family who knows how to ride a bike (except my dad). hehe.

i’ve learned that there are some things in life so simple for the majority but so complicated for me. i’ve learned that some things in life are only learned by actual activity and never by theory.

thanks to kay, keren and kagz!

Posted: May 25th, 2007 under Health, Passion, Serious Talk.
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i love cooking (and baking).  perhaps, it’s one of those passion i have deep inside of me that i never did discover when i was back home.  maybe because mom always does the cooking and i never had so much role except helping her with little stuffs when it’s almost done.

now, that i’m far away, i get to discover this hidden passion and perhaps, hidden talent. hehe.

to cut this short, i have learned that i do love cooking and baking.  so, once, i tried cooking japanese chicken curry. and here’s how it looked.  yum. yum. hehe.

i didn’t think i’d take this more seriously.  guess what?  i bought myself a new toy - an oven.  and i am so looking forward to having fun and exciting and delicious moments with my oven. 

and here’s what i made first - Philippine biko.  mom cooks biko really well and i haven’t tried doing it myself when i was back home.  not being around her makes me try it myself. and i am so damn proud of myself having done this thing.  it doesn’t look so good though, but… give me a chance… =)

yesterday, i made carbonara (pasta with white sauce) too for my dear friends who stayed overnight. i did it as i’ve seen on tv.

and this afternoon, we made cookies for tomorrow’s open church.  i had so much fun and i learned a lot.

way to go.  so much to learn.  and perhaps so much time left too.  well, maybe.

well, i’m just so looking forward to cooking and baking more. and more. really, when you’re doing something that you love to do, there’s no pushing yourself into doing it.  you find joy. and there’s always time for it.

Posted: May 19th, 2007 under Cooking, Passion.
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